MY LOVE STORY



The only man I love this way,
and I don't think I could
fall in love again ...



I haven't yet talk about my love story. Though of the present state now, I wanted to fortell my Love Story.

For the first time I feel in love. For the first time too, I feel on how to be broken and hurt. Cried and pained. Giver and to be jealous ...

Believe it or not, I just feel this all when I fall in love with this man. For the first time, I didn't take a hold of my heart to fall in love. I just let myself and never analyze, weigh and just give all ... Give all ...

And I broke all the wall and open the cage I put on to myself to be safe from pain and hurt. But when right away I felt this love, I never mind it anymore and just follow what my heart says without any looking back ...

I never fall in love before ... And once I will be, it will stay forever no matter what happen with this love, it will till eternity ... (While am doing this, Devon our son show up and yelling, "Daddy! Daddy! Daddy!")

However, I Will Never Cry

Hurt and pained,

Broke and misery,
Sadness and loneliness!

Depress and distress,
Upset and disappoint,
Hopeless and useless!

Anguish and gloominess,
Over sorrowfulness!
Is this endless?

You stabbed my heart deep!
Hurt and pained rushed throughout me!
I feel too much broken in this misery,
Then sadness overwhelm within of me!

You give serious wound in my soul ...
It creates depression in my heart,
It makes me always upset to think about it,
Over and over again!

I start feel this hopelessness,
Distressing over uselessness,
I have been disappointing,
Of your broken promises!

My spirit surrounded by anguish!
My face full of gloominess,
And in my eyes residing,
This endless sorrowfulness ...

However, I will never cry!
It could never worth it for you!
Though I do not know how to through!
My days and nights without you!

The Touch of a Sweet Angel

Today is a bad day and more bad news for me. It's been half a year since my mother's mom was on bed, and I gave a little support every month as help for my grandma's needs. But times are very hard right now, so I almost can't support her already as my father has been out of the job for two months. I shoulder all expenses now. In addition, I received a message from my aunt that my ill grandma's sister died the other day. It was real a shock for us because we expected and readied ourselves thinking my ill grandma would probably die before one of her sisters. This grandma used to visit and watched my ill grandma at night sometimes. We truly never knew when a person's life will end.

I am remembering now, she is the grandma who gave us, her granddaughters, advice to pray and devoted to Mama Mary, Jesus' mother. Yes, all my grandma's are very devoted Catholics. She said to us that we should ask Mama Mary for the husband's we wanted and we should not be ashamed to ask her about what kind of a husband we would like (if he is handsome, rich, kind, loving, and more in good character). And Mama Mary and will grant it! And yes! I followed her, actually, and took her advice; I asked Mama Mary and Jesus for the husband I wanted (handsome, muscular body, and even not a rich guy, just have stable and good earnings, very kind and generous to my family). And he is, God gave me all what I prayed after a year of making a devotion in Quiapo Church, Manila.

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The Touch of a Sweet Angel - DivineCaroline

MEMOIRS~~ YEAR OF 2009 PICS (added photos)

Month of July, 2009



           July 20, 2009~~~ 02:14 pm ...
Devon's Tenth months old!




This is the time that Devon start climbing from his crib :)




   Enjoying it! So kept watch him all the time!
He is just ten months old!


Month of August, 2009


Aug. 11, 2009~~~ 10:47 am ...




Just playing :)




Trying to put on his slipper ...




           Aug. 12, 2009~~~ 05:28 pm ...

Devon ten months and twenty-two days old!




Love biking! Always requested
his Uncle to have some ride!





Enjoying a lot!!!



Our dogs followed around! LOL

Devon's First Hospitalization



July 5, 2009~~~ 08:03 am



              This is Devon's first admittion to a hospital ...

            Nine months and fifteen days old!



It is the time who's so many kids sicked and admitted! Same causes!



We could hear childrens crying a lot! Especially when injection time! But my little angel were so brave! Injection or any pointed thing is nothing for him!




This is Devon's reaction to his doctor and nurses' every time of injection :) lol (that is not a cry, only a funny reaction and we laughed and having a good time though we're at a clinic:)



Does he look sicked? Or any shows of fear in hospital? Never! Nothing!



MEMOIRS~~ YEAR OF 2009 PICS (Feb. ~June)

Month of February, 2009

Feb. 03, 2009~~~ Devon four months

       and thirteen days old.

Feb. 09, 2009~~~ 10:51 am

Feb. 09, 2009~~~ 10:53 am

Month of March, 2009

         March 21, 2009~~~ 04:29 pm ...

       Sixth months-and-one-day-old.

     His first swing!

Month of April, 2009

     April 03, 2009~~~ 02:34 pm ...

First tooth two lower central incisors.

April 12, 2009~~~ 10:37 am ... Devon's first swim!

"Nanay Rosie's 45th Birthday!
We went to the beach for her b'day celebration :)"

      April 29, 2009~~~ 10:13 am ...

   Seven months and nine days old.

Month of May, 2009

          May 25, 2009~~~ 19:17 am ...

       Eight months-and-five-days old.



On this month, Devon has his two lateral incisors (upper), and in June 15th~~ his two upper central incisors! In total of six tooth!




   This is the moments that Devon enjoyed a lot!
Walked around his crib, playing, smiling and giggling!


Month of June, 2009



  June 21, 2009~~~ 08:06 am, Just woke up
and don't want to miss something memorable ...



MOTHERS' DAY

Wow! It's a Mother's Day! Now, I can call myself a mother too ... and few more years, my sweet angel could greet me "Happy Mothers' Day Mommy!"

Yeah, truly am look forward in that moment to come. No celebration yet ... No dinner date outside. No outing or a picnic with a whole family ... Everything were a yet for now. Yep, so sad and what a lonely moment.

Even though, I have a wonderful mother in my side ... Though of her illnesses, she always did anything for us! By now, she is the most wonderful Grandma in the whole world! Always there for her sweet angel!

I know, though she never open up to me ... I could see, that Devon is the second life for her... Because of this angel, she found another reason to prolonged her life in this living. To fight and gain courage ... To be a fighter and survivor ... This life is been especial for her ... This Angel give her this kind of hope ...

"Happy Mothers' Day Mama Rosie!" And Happy Mothers Day to every mother in this world! (Including me :))

NOT YET LATE

Okay, I guess, am not yet a late bloomer in Blogging World. True that I just have the oppurtunity to do some blog here as I don't have a computer of my own. Often, I have a lot of new ideas, but too late to write down sometimes. For now, I will pursue one of my dreams and frustrations. No matter what, I am glad I have this place to be  call my own place... Yes, my own! But everyone is free to come by and leave some message in comments area :

By now, am trying to live at the moment. So many complex in my life, I feel I will lost if I could not find myself right away. Am looking for something for my life... Such a lonely life. I should have more than this, but always has many complication before I could have it in my hand to hold and never let it go! At the moment, I am finding the way... The road to take to reach my dreams, life fulfillment, and endless happiness!

My Beginning In Blogger World: My First Post

My Beginning In Blogger World: My First Post: "Hi there! I am new here so am looking how to work here yet! I love writing and it is my frustration! However, I know am not good at it yet ..."

MY SWEET ANGEL



My son "Devon Shawn" born on September 20, 2010.




8 days old! But he start responding to everyone!




I remembered when we are at hospital. He is just 3 days old, but start look up at opened TV, was curious already of sounds and surely colors he sees!




Sleeping so sweetly in my side... what an angel!



How to Find Your Soul Mate

How to Find Your Soul Mate - DivineCaroline

Here is an article I published at DC. Just please click the bold tittle along with "DivineCaroline" above and feel free to leave a comment.

Love and Pain - DivineCaroline

Love and Pain - DivineCaroline

Click the Tittle above to view this Poem

My First Post

Hi there! I am new here so am looking how to work here yet! I love writing and it is my frustration! However, I know am not good at it yet as I never has any college degree that can help me to make a better stories or article. Anyway, my lackness in education never could stop me to try and write! By now, I am a membered of this free site to write and there, I could enhance my capacity as well develop my learning and understanding!

I am a membered on this site "DivineCaroline" which Life is in my words! Before I do some blog and introduce myself... I will share some of my works from there. I will just try how it works here if I will share some of  my stories from DC. Will more do some tour and browse around here in my neighborhood in my next time check in here :)

Love for a Lifetime - DivineCaroline

Love for a Lifetime - DivineCaroline

All I need is ... love!
Someone, who will love me with a love of not an ordinary ...
Someone can show me what real happiness was ...
I need someone to protect me ...
Protect me from a thing called hurts and pained.

I need someone who
could make me smile every minute of my life.
I need someone who
could make me laugh with true sounds of joy.
I need someone who
warm hands to gently caress my face.

Someone could keep me warm on cold nights ...
Someone could offer his arms to wrap around me ...
Someone could watch me while I am sleeping tightly.

I want someone who never matter the distance.
I want someone who never wastes time.
I want someone who never waited for the seasons to pass.

Somebody who could show me I am special ...
Somebody who could be devoted to me.
Somebody who could appreciate me.

I need someone who unconditionally loves me ...
Someone never matter of, never asks for, never think with.
All I want is a love of a Lifetime ...